At Changsha...it is so cold here. I prefer Shenzhen much better.

   Today is Christmas Eve and for some reason, I heard about his name again. It was a long time ago (more than 6 years) and suddenly I thought of him-hardly remember anything but still miss him.

   My Christmas wish: I hope he can get over the past and be a happy man. If we can ever see each other again, hope we can be strangers.

  今天是马来的新年，新加坡的公共假期-于是一大帮的姐姐妹妹们便计划去medan玩。为了省钱，我们坐船到BATAM岛，然后再坐印尼国内的航线去medan.

  可是，航空公司临时取消了飞机，而且其他的飞机全都满了。晕大家于是决定在BATAM好好玩。

  1) The most crazy thing I have done in Batam-bathing by the sea:

   I am a SPA lover. Whenever I go, I will take every opportunities to enjoy myself in a SPA, melting all my worries, all my stress and all my tiredness in that going-to-paradise message. This time in Batam is no exception.

  I stayed in a KTM resrot. It is not a fancy resort but has a very nice SPA. They have 6 villas by the sea and while you are enjoy the service, you can enjoy the sea-view as well as the sound of the sea-wave. It is like a open-space villa.

  What I have done here? I took a bubble bath just by the sea while I could still see some small boats passing by. It is so cool. My body was all covered in the bubble and I felt I am so close to nature. Sorry forgot to take a picture and I will leave the imagination to you.

 

  2) The most interesting thing I have done in Batam-drinking in a bar in Turi beach

  Turi is a small beach in Batam and has a very tiny bar in the middle of sea, connected by a long bridge to the shore. 7 of us were there and all are girls. The tiny bar had only one bar-tender-a young indonesian guy. We ordered a few drinks and he showed us all the bottles that in the bar. It must be so fun for the indonesian guy to chat with 7 chinese young ladies. He offered us free drinks and free chips. We kept him very busy during our one-hour stay in the bar.

  I always like to have interactions with locals whenever I go. I believe it is one of the best part in my trip. You cannot understand a culture without understaning its people.

 

  3) What's more?-the seafood is really cheap and nice in batam.

  1 kg chili crab, 1 kg steam prawn, steam fish, scallop, tofu and vege for 8 ppls. Guess how much it cost? Less than 90 SGD. It is really nice and cheap.

 

  4) what is the challenge?-going out with 6 other girls.

   If one thing needs 10 mins to be done, 7 ppl will need at least 30 mins to finish. And for 7 girls, it might take more than one hour. But that's the beauty of being a lady. Take it slow and think about it over and over again.

 

After all, I had a great time in Batam with my other 6 girl friends. I have always enjoyed the different perspectives of life.

This was written 2 months ago and I removed it from blog after 1 week I wrote it. When I looked back, I believe everything happens for a reason:

 

最近心情很差，今天坐在TAXI里面差点没有哭出来。也不知道是不是快特殊了，荷尔蒙的问题-最近很不爽。
下午去了海边滑冰，晚上和老师，同学吃饭，喝酒，聊天。其实真的是心里难过，不敢一个人在家呆着。像我这样要面子的人，在外面永远是嘻嘻哈哈的-有时候停下来，就会难过。所以最近的社交生活总是排得满满的-回家马上就睡觉，不要有空去思考。
老板休假去了，工作不会有那么多的压力。下个拜五也去美国了，好久没有见的朋友也终于可以见到了。ROMI特地放假陪我，真是感动。5年了，我们5年没有见面了。上次她都来了旧金山，可惜我没有能够在那里。TIM也是3年没有见了，真是挺期待再见面的。还有EMILY，LI，都是好久没有见到的朋友。
最近也很少去教会，很害怕去面对自己的心-明明是伤痕累累，却要欺骗自己"我很好"。我不好，我很早以前就知道了。可以我没有勇气去面对，只好逃避。我骗自己，骗得好辛苦。觉得自己就像个双面人，性格分裂。。。
这次我没有人可以说，因为我不知道该怎么说。。。我的口才还算不错，挺适合做销售的。很多时候我可以说服别人，可是却说服不了自己。我有999个理由证明我很快乐-好工作，好日子，好朋友和好机会，可是我就是不快乐。心已经开始咆哮了-表达被忽略的愤怒，被欺骗的无辜。真的骗自己太久，太久，几乎要忘记了，几乎完全习惯了-是麻木了？还是放弃了？可幸的是，生活太美丽，太多感动-我的心拒绝妥协，放弃对幸福和快乐的追求。我一次次被提醒我的梦想和一阵阵的心痛-没有谁的错，只有太多的无奈。。。
其实长大的我学会了一样东西-放手"let it go"!